~aRe U wAiTiNg FoR SoMeOnE?~

2007-05-04T22:22:00.000+08:00

Wats wrong with today.>~>~
all the ppl give me shit face la~~
...
y...
very irritating...
am i so irritating...
y everyone all bu shuang to me~~

2007-04-22T12:09:00.000+08:00

U r too selfish....
always hope tat i will be happy without u...
BUt i am not happy!!
always nv ask for my permission , n decide my future for me!!
I receive ur sms in the morning, do u know how happy i am...i nv expected is u...
perhaps tat is the last time u will even sms me to me...

i know both of us have to go back to 1 years ago, where we just a friend....
u r too cruel....
really broke my heart...but tat isLOVE...
there is nothing much to say anymore..
i just wanna tell u

Darling....
I can so easily put u down is not i dont like u le.... ...i used to tell u if u r tired...can let me know..i will definitely let u go....i have tried...but in the end u still prefer to go...
if u will happy...then i really willing to let go no matter how sad i am...how long we have been? i think is 8 months 13days....
Thank u always there for me......ya...i am not a good gf..always make u angry....
i always believe if we like each ohter every problems will be solved...but i am wrong...
u dislike me to cry....n i told myself that is my last time infront of u...
i nv cry...but does not mean i not hurting....i finally accept the fact.....u still not belong to mine...
everything will be washed away....i am not sad u has ditched me.....i just sad i nv do get to know more things.
but i have a regret.......
anyway....i hope we still be friends ....at leas\t a hi n bye friend...i dont really want to be a stranger...
Jia Uuu ba.....n take care....

2007-04-21T20:43:00.000+08:00

..I already let u go....
perhaps i really have to put it down...cause no matter how i tried, u still think so...
i guess really cant continue ....so y dont let u go ..

I always think u r the 1 i want...but recently, u always angry or not happy.it really makes me feel tired...
i tried to wang hui...but the problem is still there..so there is no more i can do...
u also sick of me.....
so its better to let go of my hands...
u always think i will find the 1 i like......
perhaps wat u should is right..but do u know whenever u said so,,,i will always angry with u...

everything is over.....i will just do watever u like...

2007-04-13T09:24:00.000+08:00

i cant convinced myself to let u go...
tears still floing down f\rom my cheeks..
how should i go....
ii am ion dilemma....
cantt let u feel tired....but dont bear to let u go
how??
everything is vividly reflected inside my mind

II am confused.....
e 1st time i thought when i opened up my eyes is u!...
can i assumed tat it just a dream....nightmare....
just thought tat everything has not happened...
we still happily togther...can??

2007-01-10T18:17:00.000+08:00

Later I will be taking flight back to China...

Miss everthing here....Esp UUu....

Anything can still drop me a msg... .i will try to reply u AS|Ap!...

Take care everyone....^^...

9 days will just go very fast....

Shermin Mei..sorry I always forgot to reply u....Anyway I just wanna tell u tat I am fine..^_-...ok? Haha~~...U must guai guai de la...do homework n listen to ur parents can le\

John Kor...Hope by the time I come back...I also will heard some news from U!!...Take a good care!!...

Elaine...Ray....n ....alot....thank u for everything ur have done...I appreciate it a lots..

2007-01-07T00:36:00.000+08:00

I will be going on 10 th of jan ...n back on 19th of jan~~

Mixed feeling...should i feel happy? i dont know...

No words can describe my feeling right now!...

I miss my grandma..., my relatives.....my freinds...n U....
But......

haiz....I dont know...everythings are in a mess....Have not really settle it...

WOrking until quite tired....

Always make mistakes...

^^...tmr is better day....

2007-01-05T22:25:00.000+08:00

Haiz.>~>~ a lot of things happened...
1stly.....i have to plan for my future right now...everything must be plan be4 hands...
I want to go n study for another language...But my problem now is wat to study..n where to study...i want to go for my dream...which is to become air stewendress..
Every one encourages me to go for a try...n our life time is only once...so cant just wait n do nothing....~~ ...

Secondly..... I lost my hp...n RAymond lent me his hp~~...
Thanks alots for his help~~...N ANdy uncle wanted to sponsor me some money to by my new hp~~>.bUt i kind of feeling paiseh..cause he treats me too good...just like a father doted on daughter...~...Too touched....

hmhm..lastly is the sadest thing...my beloved grandma fall ill seriously.....I cried notstop when my ma broke this news to me....I know we cant do anything...but i just simply cant face this face...it just too sudden~~...

anyway...today went to buy make up stuff...finally bought wat i wanted..But i have spent quite alot of money on it~~....gonna bankupt~~
sad~~~.....
I have learnt how to make some simply make up as well~~..not bad`~~...

Dont know wat will happen next~~~...Wait n...C...
Hope grandma will be all right....
Hope tmr will be a good day!

2006-12-25T04:45:00.000+08:00

Jesszz... taught me how to put some make up on my eyes...
hahah~~>..Quite nice...I like it alots..
tats y i decided to buy one for myself...n slolwy leanr from her...
I felt tat is time for me to put some simple make up...so tat is better to face customers...
is also another kind of showing respect to the customers....let me have a deep impression on u...
^^...
But it really ex....i have spent $50++ on the eyes lashes n lining onlI~~~
\hha..anyway...this year we sepnt xmas togther....we very lame de la`~~~like no places for us to go..~> anyway..i like tat top~~..Thank u~~...n tat perfume n my bearbear as well~~...
Thank u so much~>~..
Hope u like my present also~~

^^...Hope all the ppl have a merry xmas.>~~> 20007 is just around the corner....

2006-12-24T00:33:00.000+08:00

@_@..

Tat chalet quite Okie la....BUT i LOSt my hp...

How i losT??
i think cause we went to watch the movie...around 1 somthing...n it ended at 3 somthing..then we took taxi back....So on e way...i fall a sleep in the taxi..haha...luckily xiao xin willing to let his shoulder to me to sleep on~~....
BUt But... dont know y i nv notice my stupid hp was gone!!...

Haix....suay!!..

Today really tired...I am sorry being fierce to u....!...
I felt irritated ...tats all...n fan over some things....

...Dont feel like talking right now..
Just finished my work~~...go bathe~~

2006-12-18T01:10:00.000+08:00

Mid night sun...Is quite a nice n touching movie....
I strongly recommended this moive~~
I cried...:P....perhaps i still think is a very difficult fact to accept it...
Leave the loved one alone..n died....

< days =" Yui"> Nice song~~+

Sorry....i not doing it purposely....
I dont know y i felt so...
I just cant accept tat fact....
If let me choose....I chose not to know it...
cause It only makes me have one more thing to worry...

Perhaps U will think i just kind of wu li qu nao...
yes!!
But...i just cant.....
Perhaps u felt i think too much~>~>.
BUt i just dont like u to do so~>~..
perhaps i just too selfish~~>~..
Sorry..

I dont know y...
Everyday we must face the same thing...
Open sale....!!..
IF is gonna to 4 or 5 pm..n we still not yet Open...
Then Gene will always remind us again n again~~...
n in the end We will all have tat Invisible stress with us~~~

@_@.....
anyway....sorry....hope u will tahan me...haha~~

I dont really want to reject ur request...But i have to..
cause i really cant able to make it...
I have to work~~...
Sorry....But still hope u will enjoy ur days....

2006-12-15T10:41:00.000+08:00

Aiyo....Too many things happened...

Today off...Thats y i got the time to sit infront of com to update my blog...

But wat should i do for a day??
haha~~...
Dont know....wait n c..

Quite Tired...N all of us dont really want to work anymore...haha~~...all of us wanted to go shopping~~

OooO ya.>~>~ i forgot about the present.//
i still have not buy the xmas present for eliane~~
Headache~...

One year has past...over this year....so many things happened.~
N i have my impt exam...n got my ...

I just hope 2007 will be a new beginnning...
~~
Qi dai!

2006-11-30T00:35:00.000+08:00

Yi Bing..is going back soon...
I am sad sad...
I will miss him...
We always chit chat....
Talk about our past...our future....our.....
I share all my problems with him...
He shared with his moive with me...
We watched it together...
Everynight i will be stay at his room..chatting ,until we r sleepy..
We watched our photos~~..
Time flies...We r all grown up~~.
Though the time is short...
i Still think the time is nice~~~...

I still will wait for u in singapore...
Jia you~~>!>.

2006-11-27T01:42:00.000+08:00

Working everyday..n.<~

3rd day le...so everything is get used to it le..so qute all right....

Jia you Chen Qiu...

1st day of the work made me wanna cry...but i told myself i cant be defeated so easily..caus\e i am chen qiu....

Elaine encouraged me...
Thank u...i am all right..^^

hehe...

Tmr is another brand new start~...

2006-11-22T12:58:00.000+08:00

HAiz.....headache~~

i planned to go woodland ...but....cause of serious headache.....
i have to cancel.....

argh~~~~~...

2006-11-18T22:26:00.000+08:00

@_@. another tired day...
i have went suntec city...

i also went to interview!!...
hahaha...
so nervous~>~>.
hate it...but~~>~....no choice...i need money~>~>.
earn....
haha
anyway waiting for good news..>~!

2006-11-17T22:42:00.000+08:00

I am so suprised to c u under my void deck~~>..

Tat is a cute winnie mugg.... i have one special mug for my own...
thank u~~>..

^^....

i appreciate it alot alots...

i just could not able to express my thankful to u~>~>.
^^...

Today...elaine n i have been gone to vivo city>~>~>
So big..n not bad...i have also tried the chao chao exp choco ( Godiva)...
Heart pain~~>..<
haha....n went to shop around...
..elaine wants me to buy her levis jacket for me..
hahha...but i cant able..caus\e it is too exp to me...i cant deny it is nice...
but i just no money now~>~..
haha~>..wait wait....
....
we also went to the bookfair...wow~>~>.CooL.....wind breeze........
we have bought one book ( failing forward)....
quite meaningful~~>...
teach us how we should face our failure....hahah~>~..
i think it will help us in future.....
.then after tat went to her house ...had our dinner...
...
i have found one prefume......very nice frangrance....is a burberry.brand....
sweet n nice!!..I want...but too bad...it doesn't belong to me at all..sob sob...
nvm nvm`~~..next time...^^...

i want to find job now~~>..
Elaine gonna be busy from next week...n i think if wanna keep me busy n earn some money...
i think working is the best choice~>~>.
...hahah~~...

2006-11-14T17:00:00.000+08:00

haiz..~>~>.
i think i gonna fail my a maths...
>.<>>~

how??

work hard on paper 2?
yeah...right~~....

@_@....
not in good mood...

2006-11-11T13:47:00.000+08:00

Yeah~~...

I finally get rid of tat password thing..>~
I have changed my tagboard with the help of SUsil...

So happy ^__-...thank U~~....

10大经典爱情感言(中英文版)

2006-11-10T09:57:00.000+08:00

1) I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you. 　
　
2) No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry. 　　

3) The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them. 　　

4) Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile. 　　

5) To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
　　
6) Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you. 　　

7) Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. 　　

8) Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to. 　
　

9) Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful. 　　

10) Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened. 　
　

2006-10-21T19:46:00.000+08:00

mum n kor is back!!!.....
They bought me presents~~~
happy happy~~~

2006-10-06T21:01:00.000+08:00

aArgh~~~
Mum n kor are decided to go back for a holiday...
leave me n papa in singapore..~
Abit sad sad...
but who tell sm ei have an important exam in this year.>~
nvm~..

Though i support Mum going back to relax herself....
Working so hard to earn a living....now really is time for her to put all those burden downs...have a good life~>.

This time, kor is accompanying mum home...
Kor wants to take this opportunity going back to see nai nai...n see his buddy~....
Mum felt tat i still have chances to go back..but kor is different..he gonna enter Ns after poly...by tat time, it would be very difficult for him going back already....

Today pei mumum go china town....book tickets..n buy all the stuffs tat is needed.
We bought 14 watches in total....hahah~~......
for all the cousins....n bought one digital camera...happy happy^^~~...
Ya~~>..so tat i also have the chances to seee their photos...

Actually i not as brave as wat i thought...though i consoling mum not to worried for me..
But i know i still will feel very lonely...
I dont want mum to know tat..make me bu fang xin~>~..
I really dont know how is it like without mum mum n korkor....

I know elaine will pei me more....camilia also willing to stay back with me....anyway thank u
^^
I really will miss them alot alot.>~>~
But still hope they can enjoy themselves.>~>~

2006-09-30T12:34:00.000+08:00

^_-...finally it is over~...
MY prelim results was damn lousy~
Every paper is badly done...
wat am i going to do??

I am not going to let this happen again~...
I dont want to regret like how i felt when i saw the papers.
Anyway..it oonly has exactly 1 month left to buck up now!
I know mR paul helping me a lot..
sacrifice his precious time ..teach me one to one...
I really also hope i can do well for my english~
No english,,, cant go anywhere...
Chen qiu...jia you!!...

My purpose is not tat.....Today is elaine's birthday..
i had planned quite alot of suprises for her...
Firstly, i told them only three of us onli....however i knew she wanted to have alot of perople celebrate her birthday...so keep her secret....
Secondly...she really thought i forgotten to buy her present...How can i forget....! Today so important..even if i dont have time i also will definitely get her something....
The moment she saw all the guys~..She was shocked...haha~>~..
I finally can see her smile on her face~...finally i relief....
I am not a good planner...so i really thought it wont be going well~...
But luckly~, everything is quite fine....
She also quite happy...
perhaps this is her 1st time have so many old friends celebrate for her....

Elaine...

I still got alot of things to tell u.....
The card is only part of wat i wanna say...
I believe u also will know....
We are just like sister, like a really family...
We share joy, sadness....happines....
Without u, i think my life will be colourless...
Really hope it will carry on ....
no matter wat will happen....
I will suport like how u have faith in me~~...
Really Hope u r happy~~...
Happy birthday!~~.
Of course also hope u can make ur impossible to possible!

2006-09-24T20:48:00.000+08:00

U had left my life totally....
My mind filled up with u entirely...
I chose to end it...
Now i start to think of u~..
Kind of weird~...
anyway...
Y...
do i like tat treat me...
I already decided to close it...

I dont want to find any one to replace it..substitute the place that once u had in my heart..
....

Today went out with vic....
U always very serious when u played tat game...
i like to stand besides u ...watching u play..
haha..kind of fun~...
it's okie to wait for u~...
so dont worry...

2006-09-23T03:13:00.000+08:00

I just came back fomr PS
We went to watch the movie <>
tat show not bad...quite funny...
n i enjoyed a lot with all of them...
we laugh...we eat, we..share...
haha~...
It also been a long time nv see Raymond..
Elaine always anyhow make fun of me n raymond...
N thought he still got feeling towards me..
but i dont know it is possible..
he treats everyone equally...

I on my com n went to ur ....
I felt sad out of the moon.>~.
y do i feel so?
isit u already given up?
or i being too selfish?
I guess must be u have known other wonderful gals ...
yea...then i still think another way...
From the moment, u changed ur nick, i also think u finally make up ur mind...
I asked myself y should i feel down when someone like u have found someone he likes?
i cant be so selfish n ask u to be with me when i know i cant accept ur love...
So y dont i just let u have ur happiness n...ur life/...
yes..i think it should be the right way to think~>..

Perhaps u know who i am referrring to...
not important...
Rmb wat have told u before...
choose wat u think is the best to u!...
Happy n smile....
jia you~~...

2006-09-21T19:32:00.000+08:00

Because of one msg, make me get to know u again...
should i thank myself of being blur?
or should i say is kind of destiny..?

anyway, no matter wat, i still happy to know u again~~..
but u still very bad..always tv n game come 1st, talk to u always dont reple me at all~
always wait for u...
u nv change this bad habit~~
anyway..take care..
i missed those days we had ...
hahah~ though a bit lame..but is fun~...

Ooo ya...today pei mama whole afternoon...
we went to ICA ask things for my cousin~...
hmhm~...then travelled all the back to hougang, ...
really good to spend time n talk to mum...
at least she knew wat is happening around me..n kor as well...
i ate a lot today..N N today mama bought me "wo de zui ai".. pancake burger..
ii am so happy~~reallly...

OoOo..ya today knew tat zeff is successly pass his interview...congras to U...
Jia you OooOO...
hahaa...n know more gals^^..is also good la..( though i nv tell u i may feel abit jealous wor..)
anyway...word hard
....

wat i told u is really from my bottom heart...
u know when i was talking to u tat, my tears are falling down from my cheek...
I know u might dont believe wat i said...
but ....
as far as i concern, i feel tat u should know it...
i want u back...... my friend..^^..
U r someone who can keep all the deepest secrets for me..
u r someone who always support me, faith i can do it...
U r someone who always help me whenever i in trouble...
u r someone who always believe me, when all of them in doubt
U r someone who always encourage me, n convince me ...
u r ......

dont want to continue anymore....

2006-09-20T17:36:00.000+08:00

I has a good day...
I had a good dream at noon also~~
Really wish i will meet such person in my real life~..
But really thank u for helping me, n spend a day to me~..
...
...

2006-09-18T21:20:00.000+08:00

Sorry for donknow how to console u...
Know tat u r upsad...
i cant do anything ...
But only accompany u~...let u know tat actually i always by ur side~
^^ i am happy u think of me when u r sad..
I am felt honour to be ur listening ear
jia you~..
Be urself, n happy with watever u think is right`..

Everything can to the end~...
No trouble, no hurt,

perhaps is the best way of all~..

Please dont let another person appear in my life..

Dont hurt PPl..

Everything just come to the stop~..
I want my life...with myself...

Please...

I very cruel to u~, but i guess is the best way...
i nv cried last night , but it did not means i dont care....
Everything u did will always in my mind,
But i think is the best way to u~...
UU must must forget me~..
Sorry for u to know me such person...
Good tat u will be fine...
Bad memories~...
maybe wat u said is true...
So please just let it go n move on...dont remind anything of me~
cause it will make u even more hurts.~
...

2006-09-17T18:57:00.000+08:00

Wei siao Pasta is really an interesting show...Must watch..
It will help u to release stress..
it also teaches us must be postive all the time..everything can be solved if u face it bravely..~
Jia you jia you~~!!

Sorry...I broke ur heart....
But i think tat is the only way...
cause if it continues will hurt u, i guess it will even morehurt u more..QUote zeff " crying is better then keep hurting"
tats y i made up my mind..
INitially still wondering how to tell u..
but u knew it early from my actions..
so end up nv made it so embarrassed..
sorry, but really thank u...
All the things taht u did.will deeply inside my heart..i treasure the necklace .candle will still keep nicely in my drawer...
I am such lousy person who always hurt the one tat care me the most...
U also must jia you~

we are still friends right?
I still feel glad to know u~..

2006-09-16T22:15:00.000+08:00

I was quite shocked when i received a sms from MR paul~..
He asked me asomething about the file stuff..
but i got a feeling definitely must got to do with my prelim result..
I took a courage asking him isit i did too badly for my prelim..tats y Mr singh wanted to look through my file..
HE only replied me..he has not marked my piece...
Will it be an console to me.....
i really worried for it..
perhaps it is true..
should i just face this damn fact tat i fail my english badly for my prelim...
I really dont want..~
but let's face reality...
Reality always cruel~~...

Should i just tell u how i feel or i just keep it to myself...
but i really scare to see u....
y do i...
isit i still havenot get over it...
Look at U only make me remain me of the nightmare i had.....
i...

Ben dan Hooke~~..hahah~~..OkOk fine~~..i know ur a such good person~...whenever i want to find someone to vent my anger..u will always appear ..hahaha..perhaps is fate to be my chu qii tong..:P
thanks for trusting me i will success.~~ i also sincerely hope i can do well for tat...
anyway...same things goes to u~~>...jia you for ur english~~... Ooo ya...dont always care for ur Mm ......
Smile~~~

2006-09-14T22:45:00.000+08:00

Another boring day past~~>
wat did i do for the day?
I have no idea at all~
perhaps just waiting time to pass +
tmr has chem paper..~
i dont want to get f9 again~~ NOnO!!
at least get a pass~~ really...
it is so ugly have 9 at my cert!..
No way!..i also dont want this to happen~..
so now still chionging for my chem~..
Hope at least half of the paper i know how to do~..

I nv nv betray u~...Y dont u forgive me..
i really just joking with u .
i definitely hope u can come..~ so tat can see ur face..~
really la~~...I nv i nv..~
i treat u as my good friends, thats y i just simple cracking so lame joke with u.
tats all~..
sob sob...
so many days had gone..
i am still waiting~~...
Anyway, still hoping u take care, n do well for prelim!
Jia you~

2006-09-12T19:02:00.000+08:00

Haiz..>
I dont want to fail my prelim!!
but all the paper i took...didnt seem so good..
Dont want dont want..
jia you~~

...i really want to do well ^^~
...

2006-09-09T04:14:00.000+08:00

U know i was looking forward to this day...cause iknow i will be meeting u...thought i was feeling tired..
But y...u want to make this to be a day which seems to be a nightmare to me..
I reallt trust u
i really did....so it is unbelievable tat it ends up like tat..

i really cant accept this fact....
how i wish tat is only a dream to me...
Unfortunately i cant...
It is so vivid

How should i react?...
I just could not believe someone u like betray u...
who can i trust now...
i doubt none...

I think i need time to think ...
i dont know whether i can forgive u or not...
but ii just hate my self now...
seriously hate it...
i just wish i am not chenqiu..

perhaps really will be last time...
got alots of maybe...

i really cant able to face u right now...
i also cant able tto talk to u...
cause once see / talk ...it will always make me remind of how it happened...
sorry.....
I dont know how long i needed...

Seeing u cry, it also beyond my control...but i cant do anything
cause i feel more hurt when someone i like the most betray me..
sorry....

i just stop here...when i already know wat i should do...i will call u...

2006-09-08T16:03:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to tampines mall with u...
i was quite happy to see u lei~~..
U have changed alot lei~~haha
wat i told u is true lor....
become more mature le...hahah~~

Though always pei u go...
but is my 1st time see u play so serious.>~>>~
I just know tat u r very pro in tat maximum tune lei~
hahaha~~
When i praised u...u still so humble..
quite funny to tease u wor.>
IT only benn few months, but i can see the changes in u..hahah~~
who changes u~? dont want to tell me..haha~~
OkOK lor...grow up ..so must be more mature le~~..
thanks for cheer me up~~

2006-09-06T23:02:00.000+08:00

Cry cant solve anything...
but at least allow me to pour all my unhappiness out of my heart...
Everything goes wrong....

Ben dan...u ask me to smile...but nv tell me how to smile cheerfully...
I abit tired le....
Perhaps really want to rest le...

U this Ben HOOKE ,want to console me, but hor always make me bu shuang de
always make me more fed up...
anyway i know u r worried about me...
I wont cry so easily de la~~..
got strength to cry..means got energy to work hard la~~!!
I where got so easily be defeat de^^

2006-09-06T19:45:00.000+08:00

Sorry sorry...i really not purposely make u angry..
i tat time really just joking with u...really..
i am feel pleased to have a great friend like u..
when no one believe me...when no one stand besides me...
u will always encourage me, support me.n..trust me...
U always faith in me...
So i cant afford to lose a friend like u...

Tat is really speaking from my bottom heart...
Can dont feel i am also like them~...
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sorry , forgive me ...
i know i did wrong thing
sorry...
dont leave me ...dont ignore me...dont....
let me pei u......

2006-09-05T23:40:00.000+08:00

I dont know y i should angry with some small matter..
perhaps i really lost all my patience...

Even if i angry...u seems dont know at all..
Then wat's the point of angry with myself...
Quite dumb~

Hmhm...I just need time to cool down~...
but be4 tat, dont nugde me~~ please...
if not i also dont know wat i will do to u~..
sorry.~>~>
tat is me~~...
I dont want change...
Either i also dont want u to change for the sake of me~

2006-09-04T18:45:00.000+08:00

I know you r hurt...while i cant do anything for you...
But I will lend u my shoulder for u to cry on
You wont be alone...
Cause i will be there for you..
If not, i can cry with you...

I dont know how to ease ur pain...
I dont think tat is possible for u to forget all those hurts
So I only wish i will there for you~
Share ur pains..
For u to know tat, actually there is someone there for you~...

2006-09-02T23:44:00.000+08:00

HooKE BEn dan!!!
..sorry..just now nv reply u seriously..

hmhm...i know the pain u had now...
cause i used to feel tat way too

wat should i console u...?
hmhm...i only can advise u move on...

Dont waste time waiting for her anymore~~
cause u dont have much time also~~

I know u dont bear...cause she is the one understands u the most..
but ben dan!...if u dont let go, u r suffering..isn't it?
U now cant take it anymore right...
u also know no matter how long u waiting, the answer still the same
then...
I know is easy for me to say...but i once experienced it be4~..
Time can heal ur wounds..so bear with it...
u still got me lei~~>.hahaa~~
Tell u le...i will support u de right~~..
hahah~~
aiyo...so dont sad sad de wor~~...

^_-...i am quite happy today.....

2006-08-31T00:42:00.000+08:00

我知道你有多爱我。。对不起，不能还你。。

2006-08-30T22:25:00.000+08:00

Today i really have a good day~

Although today got english prelim which i dont know how well i have done, i still have fun~..cause we went back to our pri school..
Indeed, primary school is the only place where i found alot of memories, my mind filled with wonderful things, like how i like Alan, how i followed him, all the places where i could see him~..hahha~~...now reflect on all these, i will smile~

Anyway, lets talk about my english prelim~...I wrote about perserverance this topic, i am hope this time i wont write out of points, i wrote very normal storyline..Dont know how badly i have done..Then the compre part, i also dont know wat i did...cause passage a i cant really get wat it means..I am dead.~. Anyway...at least both papers i can finished on the dot..

After tat i went to eat lunch with jasmine...we talked n ate for a quite logn time, then i qucikly went to meet Xiao xin n Elaine... I am so happy to see xiao xin..he has lost weight.When reached school, i also saw Kai wei, jun sheng, n kim wee~...They looked fine...but dont forgot...i also saw jia fong~ ...We went to see Miss tan n Lim lao shi~...they r still the same....really feel delighted tat i am graduated from there where have all great facilities, n teachers..They created good memories for me.After tat they decided to go n catch a movie...

haha~ 1st time go to kai wei's house.....known him for so long..but 1st time go...abit weird.....her mum welcomed us...then after changed the clothes, we heading for our destination..
But cause elaine n step still not yet reached 16 years old.. so they cant able to watch Snake in the plane..so we planned to watch ant city...It really a parable movie which taught me some morals..
haha~ anyway...but jun sheng quite entertainment..always come n chat with me when i was alone...we also keeping asking him about his ex..haha~...cause we r KPO...

Anyway..after we finished it..it already 9 ++...U know wat...I see him again~..hahaa...i am sure all of your want to know who is HIM...haha~~..he just a stranger la...I saw him running for bus while i was waiting for elaine...He also lived nearby..coincidently..HE just sat infront of elaine n step..then Elaine hinted me to sit besides me..but i shy la~~haha...anyway..then we talk\ed so loud tat he kept looking at the back...I thought he is trying to look at step...but elaine said he was looking at me....I dont know..cause i dont think he is interested looking at me..@@ stephaine is a cute gal ..so i am sure he is..anyway..~ not impt..then tat is another two guys infront of me...Elaine dont like them..cause when a guy dropped his pen..we r kind enought to pick it up n return to him,..he ingore us..n also w/o saying thanku to us~...Dont like..haha...

Then after tat when i reached home, i called elaine...she told me after she alighting...the guy was behind her...as if like her boyfriend..haha~...she said it will be not bad to have such cute bf..haha~...I suppose in her dreamland la...
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I guess i stopped here...tmr have a long day~~~...go airport studying..~...

Tonight i have a quick chat with Ryan~...i am so happy for him...He finally found someone he likes...Kknow him for so long...i think 5 years...He nv told me anything about a gal...so happy...I am his 1st gal friend to know this secrect lei~ i feel so honour...anyway...ryan is a good good guy ...who can share everything to him.....He always my big korkor.....
Ryan~ wo zhu fu ni~....must xing fu wor...keke~^-^

2006-08-27T22:02:00.000+08:00

hmhm>.i guess NObody has misunstood..
Hooke is my good boy friend..but not bf...haha~
I had lost...lost in somewhere i cant walk out on my own~
I dont know how to express my feeling...
I am happy some of them finally know what is their happiness...
I am blessed ...Go for it...

Failure is the only way to success....
I am quite happy tat he has succeed..
He made his dream come true...
Gone through all the hard work, he finally make it come true...next month, he will be flying to UK continue his studies...
Whereas i still stuck inside the mud, nv get to improve at all...
Feel quite embarrassed....

Gaps r become bigger n bigger, Wat happened?
Perhaps Something has happened...Or u just want to avoid me.
anyway....jia you...^^

2006-08-26T22:06:00.000+08:00

Dont know why...Whenever see hOoke not happy.i also will be affected..

I happy when i received the present..when i slolwy opened, the feeling is very weird..as if is someone very special..indeed, he has occupied a large area in my heart..cause he is someone tat i can sure all my secrets with...haha...So u must cheerful faster~...

I wear the necklace tat he bought for me, i am glad. I also hope i will be lucky after i wore it..give me same luck for my prelim...^^...

Ben dan! Jia you wor~..dont give upp also~...i want to see u here wor! i will always wait for u de~ so must buck up~~..do well for ur exam also11
Dont always care for ur mm la~

2006-08-21T20:56:00.000+08:00

People always encourage me be more postive...

I dont know wat has happened....

U hate me for who i am?..

Or just tat i am chen qiu..tats y u dislike me..?

Will u know u r the one i referring to?

No matter wat , still do well for ur exams~.....

2006-08-16T20:56:00.000+08:00

How say i describe my day?

I thought i got a bad day from the morning to night...
However, there is something shines my day!

Quite suay lor...Wei pu took my paper ..n i kept forgot to take back from him...so i end up nv do the hw...then scolded by MR paul~...Infront of whole class .....scled me by nv passing his papers.~Fine..i cant say anything cause indeed , i didn't n i cant tell him watever i face...cause to him , it will just be an excuse..ya~..perhaps it is~..but sometime it really difficult for us to rmb so much things...tat period is having mock exam then after tat oral .~ so make me forget got such hw~..WelL~, i deserved tat scold...anyway...just dropped tat subject....Though after tat i feeling quite sad, but i tell myself must look forward.. wat is the big deal losing the face infront of them~, they same making the mistakes be4..~ so ...y should i feel embarrassed...It is quite stupid..but tat is the only way to encourage myself...i know i very far behind~...i know...i know prelim is coming~...

I know sara tried to cheer me up, n i also try to give her a smile~...
After tat, we went to hougang mall library..doing hw together..~ n Suprisingly.~ Elaine also appear...i thought just coincidently..but i saw the cake...Sob sob...I finally know...they give me a suprise by asking me out...Although my day is not tat good in the beginning, i feel contented, really! got so many friends besides me pei me...I not lonely at all!...Hooke also sent present here...I really feel touched...Really..
Then they also brought one bag tat i like ...I know elaine planned all the things..n want to make sure tat i have a happy day on tat speical day~...Thanks alot alot ..Elaine....
I really appreciate it alot alot...Now i am the one must coming up with some ideas...cause elaine's birth also coming!~~..wat should i do~~.....
any ideas?>

2006-08-10T11:56:00.000+08:00

Sorry, i cant control my tears. let it flowing out..

I am confused...dont know what decision is the best out of all..

Today when i wake up, i slowly open my eyes, my 1st qns is tat is it oover, it is so unreal...perhaps nothing has happened..

But..i saw the candles. i knew it is true...everything has came to the end..I destory it...

I blamed myself....

I disappointed u entirely.....

2006-08-09T20:21:00.000+08:00

I dont know how to describe my feelings

I really got mixed feelings..

should i feel happy or sad...

am i worry too much...

but how come i have the feeling tat i betray myself...

Wat should i do now..

Blame myself .....

I only can keep to myself cause i dont know how to explain to others..

But tis ending is not wat i want...really...

I thought wat i think is perfect...cant expected such things happen..

I am such a failure...

i deserved to be alone ....

i deserved ....

Let me calm down..cause i am very confused...wat i really want...

perhaps i just feel very uncomfortable n uneasy...

Entirely fault is mine...

Sorry....

but I cant help it..whenever think of everything ...

I feel scare...

2006-08-04T22:23:00.000+08:00

I think i gonna failed all the subjects..
Dont know y...
Not hard working enough..
Tmr is sat...I hate it..
I wonder how would i suffer through 2 hours tmr..
At night there still has tution...Sianz...
How long such life can come to the end?
Everything all beyond my control
Indeed, abit tired, but no matter wat, we all still need to stand up again.
carry on our destination.

Cause we have the same goal~

perhaps wat i chose, should not end up being like tat
Perhaps i've wrong....
perhaps i too naive...
perhaps ....

Count down~.....

2006-07-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

Thanks for everything ....i really touched..

I happied..happy u r by my side...always did...

also speically write me a card...which touched my heart..~

I appreaciate it alot alot..really...Really great to have such friend like u...

Thanks kor, elaine..mum .. father,, n u~....

I want to share my happiness to everyone~>..hope that u all can sense my happiness.>~

I very fine...dont worry~....Thanks alot alot~~...

I always rmbed have such loves one by my side....

THanks~~>..

2006-07-30T10:33:00.000+08:00

It has been long time nv update my blog~..

Everyday is busying with my work...Some day must right from the 7am - 9 pm all staying at school~..quite tired~..

Today is my chinese birthday, my mum woke upo early in the morning ..prepare one bowl of shou noodle for me...Old years older ~...Korkor gave me money.. cause he dont know wat to give me.. thus,m he gave me some amount of money,so i can buy watever i want...^^..

Happy~~ Father will buy cake for me..~ n mum will give me ang bao..
keke~~ IT hard to imagine tat 19 years ago , i just born...
Time flies, 19 years just passed, i already no longer little gal always followed behind kor's back..I already grow up~...

Either U or elaine..~ I love u all~~...because ur all shine up my lifes~..Without ur~...my life lose colour~

2006-07-23T21:41:00.000+08:00

Sianz...recently dont know wat to write also~.

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Night class starts tomorrow
Mock test is coming also~..
Tmr is prelim o level test~....

Happy because i have u beside me~..
U share my burdens....
Always lend me ur shoulder to cry on...

2006-07-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

OoO my god~..today i am damn happy..today elaine brought one wallet for me..
we went to bugis , planned to buy present for her sis..but then we walked so many round, nv find anything is nice...however, we went to the wallet shop..then she asked me which one i liked..then after tat she said wanted to buy for me as my ealry present...I am so touching...really..today we r abit speical..We r more closer...

keke~...really happy wor....but behave abit weirdo...dont know y..perhaps too tired ...

2006-07-16T18:12:00.000+08:00

Something is not wat u seen from ur eyes..

i dont admit that i getting quite good with wei pu, but doesnt mean we r attached or wat..

We r just normal friends. We both also think tat both of us cant fall in love..cause there is no chemistry..n feeling between us..

perhaps we r close, we share food, but...doesn't mean anything la~...

Dont look at me at this way, perhaps u r misunderstood or wat, but dont ever look\ at me in this manner....

Last night saw him again!..How come i always saw him in sat night,, so scary..but still ok..cause he nv talk to me .., i just past him n then after a while he smsed me ,asked me whether i saw him or not..I nv noticed the one standing there, actually was him..

Today is Kor's 2oth birthday..hahah~~

2006-07-12T20:51:00.000+08:00

Busy Busy~...
Last night went to void deck completing my hw~..
Going to count down..
The most only left 2 months..@_@
How..How..Everyday Doing doing...Oral ...practical also coming out~
Today stay back until 6 somthing...
..Tired..tired..but just a begininig~

No.No..I dont agree with u......

HaHa..when did Hooke care so much about me.....
He said to him Diao is sound not nice...feel tat is bad word..so forbid me by saying tat word
Actualy when did i using tat word.....Nvm..Dont want to think..n dont wish to know also~
Ok..Since tat Hooke dont like.....dont want his gal friends using bad word.Then listen to him le..Later kill me into slices.. So i promised hiM~..N N..By the wway..i always want to tell U..
Hey..ur eyessight also got abit problem la..I more Nicer than her oKok\>.!...I better lor.:P
N I am not Pig!!..if i were pig,, then u r monkey!Rmb it clearly...

2006-07-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

Anyway,Zeff helped me to upload this song..I Like this song quite alot...

Title of this song is ^ No promises^

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven, feeling high
I don't want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.

I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Everytime you're near I feel like I'm in heaven, feeling high
I don't want to let go, girl.
I just need you you to know girl.

I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
I don't want to run away, I want to stay forever, thru Time and Time..
No promises
I don't wanna run away, I don't wanna be alone
No Promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love
No promises

I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight.

2006-07-09T22:00:00.000+08:00

Shall I start with Saturday..? 08/07/2006

Yesterday, was my long day, went to school for chemistry remedial..then after that came back ...n prepare for my cdac..then they r all concentrate on oral...Quite boring..but no choice, after tat i came back prepare for tution at evening.. The Teahcer also gave us oral practice also.haiz..~ Same problem with me..By the time she finished 4 of us.. it already 10 ++..then i was walking home alone..

On the way...There was a guy who smoked behind me, i was wondering how come so young already know how to smoke..Quite sad..to see it..then after tat..he always appear infront or behind me..But i nv think so much, i just thought he might just live nearby..tahts all..But beyond my expecttation, by the time i waiting for my life, he suddenly appeared hehind me, then i asked him which floor..thenhe replied me...12..then the door closed..But...after the life going to reached 8th floor... he suddenly opened his mouth, asked me whther can be friend with him or not..an even ask for my hp no. then i was so shocked..I dont know hot to reply him at all.tat time i was also scare lor..How come i also will encounter such thing.. But i dont dare to give him a fake no. cause he might try to call ..n if he found out ttat is not true..how am i suppose to escape..n he even know where i live. ...then i 1stly found some excuese...but in thte end all cant work..so no choice.....But i really scare...then after a while...

He smsed me n apologised to me...n said...he found me quite pretty then innocent..so want to make friend with me..i was like.. huh!!.. His eye sight got problem la..

sob...sob...scary experience...

2006-07-08T11:18:00.000+08:00

07/07/2006

I went out with Eunice, she wanted to buy her clothings n others...So asked me to pei her shop..So we planned to go Bugis..I realize with her, i would know which one which route to go. Unlike with elaine, n others.. I will just follow her as where she goes, i dont need to worry much of getting lost..So Finally we reached There, the 1st time we did ,was having our lunch, surprising, we spent 1 hr to just finished it. Perhaps we r talking more then we eat..After tat , we just walk\ed around teh area..then she dont really like..so we changed the place..went to suntec city.She went into the This fashion..N spent dont know how many hrs to choose one skirt..Abit unlucky..all the skirt tat she wants...all left one..or dont ahve her size..so She abit unhappy about it.so I chose one skirt for her..She felt ok to wear it..so finally after decision, she finally made up her mind...But It was already 8 somthing by then..so we just walk\ed to another shop which is my fav shop..S & K..I saw this shirt, looks quite nice n simple, so i decided to buy one for kor..since last two days was his chinese birthday..so just gave him as his present...Then Eunice saw this shirt, is yellow in colour, She likes the colour, so after consideration, she brought it..though is also last piece.

After tat, we just found tat tat it was 10+pm..so went to KFC having our dinner.. We da bao the ffood n went to esplanade there....The wind breeeze mkes us feel very relax nnconfortable..How i wish we could just sitting there 4ever, nothings trouble. There were full of my memories there. Then the more i talked..my tears dropping down from my cheek..

IT also make me remind of Kenneth, i also dont know recently..wherever i passed or ...wat..My mind will apepear his face..his goods..i Dont know wat does it shows..perhaps just kind of worrying about him..long time nv contact...tats y..so i decided to sms him...but..the way he replied make me feel very stupid...Indeed, I where got tat face to sms him anymore wor? So after a few sms, i just said..dont disturb u...go n rest..To him, i already nothing...But also good wor...Even if he got a gf now, i also will be happy de wor...Thought abit sad tat he nv asked anything about me...ya,,indeed, y should he bothere about how i am..I think i nv have any zhi ge to sms him anymore...Even if i really just be freinds wor...

I am very selfish....indeed, i am....

Life is full of regret...am i regret? ...i dont know....perhaps i would.., i would not... But no matter wat, there is no way for me to turn back anymore~..

By the time i reached home, it already 12 30 am.. Then started to feel sleepy.....n...slowly..slowly..doze off...

2006-07-05T18:44:00.000+08:00

Wah...Finally take out some of my time to update my blog...I miss my blog ~~...
I guess only blog i can faithfully believe...
Where should i start..? hmhm...perhaps start Tursday, we had 2.4 km run.. my timing was not so good compare with the last.. Is 1 mins slower...perhaps really long time nv run ...or beaucse nv had my breakfast? Or my stamina not good le ba~.. hmhm..then after tat wei up said wanted to use my com to sms her.. I dont know wat he is thinking la, still want to patch but when she was calling him, then purposely ignore her~ Lame.
Then after tat came home ,i become very restless n headache., no energy to change the clothes at all, so just ly on the sofa...but...cause need to eat dinnerw ith camilia, so went to bathe.. Then at night, i rushing for my hw...until 2 am...Luckily my mood is still pretty good on the next day wor...

Today is a long n tiring day, have 5 sciences lessons n then got english test .. then after tat mum asked me go n find the cake tat is without egg. cause Today is korkor de chiense birthday..>.< From the shop all the way walked to hougangmall..then walked arround n round the mall, try to find a cake tat kor will like it wor... ^^... Then today also Table korkor de birthday, he smsed me last night n asked me said if tmr is his birthday, can i sing him a happy birthday song .cause he said last time when he is in jC there is a xue mei always sing her happy birthday song. So I feel tat since tat is a small thing tat i can do, y dont i make him happy..so i recorded it n send it to him~..hahah~

This few days i thought elaine is angry with me by rejecting her always.. I always dont want to go swimming with her....She always will ask me if one day i wont take the initaitve sms me..then will i take the 1st step? I repleid her said..i will wait lor..wait until when u think of me ba...But after this few days, i changed my answer, i will tell her tat ..No i wont wait...i will sms u 1st de..cause dont want to lose contact, lose a freind like u wor~..all the while , she always the one tat by my side..so i cant imagine how will my life become without her...TO me , she already become one of my family le wor..really!..so no matter wat, i will treasure the freindship...

Tomr is my chinese 'o'level exam. I still very nervous , afriad cant speak , afraid cant perform well,...afraid....

KOR N TAbLE KORKOR.........HAPPY BIRTHDAy to U....
Kor...20 le wor!! Must grow up le la!! cant always beat me la.! Very Pain lei!...

How is my feeling? i dont know....Life still going on..Everyday..is nothing but study!!..

Anyway..I give u my blessing.^^..keke..xing fu wor~..Wish all the u meet ur loves one!..

2006-07-03T11:35:00.000+08:00

I havent been updated my blog for a few days..So now come n see.write...

Yesterday, i upsad mum, i always forgot wat i should do. n made her very angry..i know i also had some responisible. BY not checking all the plugs.then just went to hougang mall with palema..Then in the end by the 11..the soup still cooking..waste alot of electricity n end up the soup cant drink at all. Abit guilty. Mum woke up early in the morning, preparing all those..then in the end...end up like tat...

OoYa, by saying go hougang mall.. We went to magic wok eat, iT isnt so expensive as wat i had expected. WE ordered a plate or seafood noodle n desert. IT is delicious, n we also chated alot..we alomost cried in the end..perhaps all sad stuffs. We also went to buy lip gross.. then went around..Hougang Mall changed alot, n more lively now. Tat is the atmosphere i want..keke.. WE also very paiseh ..to buy personal stuff lor....My whole face turn red n also very shy..But in the end i stil managed to buy all .. Then we walked home n we sat at the bus stop, where had our memories.. I used to pei him waiting bus there, then tat bus stop is where she met her loves one. haha..One bus stop , but our memoires are different..

By the time i reached home, mum scolding me for not listened to her. Then tat is when i quite sad, but...u came into my mind, n i also received ur sms at the time as well. How should i explain tat type of feeling i had. Dont know..U said u can sense whether i am sad or happy. Tats y u toke the initiative msging me 1st, I almost cried. perhaps tat is the time i most need a person to talk to. I felt guilty..hurting mum.. I thoguht u just joking with me..but then u said..rmb got one time, we chatting through msn, u also can feel i am smiling, so u asked me am i happy. I replied u..yes, i am very happy.. Perhaps u really can feel it. Dont know is good or bad thing.. Even though, u nv said anything to console me, nv encourage me, I still feel tat is enough, Thank you. ...

MY brand new day comes, ^^...I lose my bear..which i hang it in my hp.quite sad..it pei me since i brought my hp..

Hooke this ben dan. hahah~..no matter u got buy or not, i still thanks u alot de la..I know u got xin yi..But But next year u must buy wor!!..keke~But not bad la...so early already brought le...U This ben dan ...very obedient..! haha..but y should i treat u good ar? is ur job to buy de lor!..Who ask u...bully me!haha~

2006-07-01T22:14:00.000+08:00

Recently..dont have the mood to write my blog...dont know y...

everyday is tired n bored...

today went to the tutition..dontk now y cant concentrate at all...all those simples words i cant even spell out..>.<..dont know y.. ...and abit cant catch up with the teacher.Where did my mind going....alot of hw is coming up~~.>.<

Perhaps from tat day..i already know tat is the last day we met...perhaps tat is gals six sense ba...tats y i still go to meet u...hahaha..but...ii also happy..u found ur happiness..zhen de...hao hao de treasure her...if u think she is the one..then do make her happy also wor..^_-..

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2006-06-30T22:06:00.000+08:00

Friday is over, which means saturday will be coming...
Hiaz...tuition...tuition~~>.>..
Today elaine taken oral..i really dont know how she did..but just hope she is ok..but just now sms me said..she felt taht she did very badly...afriad of failing..but i dont think wont de...perhaps she did very well wor..right....always think postive ....Next week i will be taking oral......i dont know how well i perform...

Hooke.....No matter how u complain..to me...to me u still r consider Crazy Hooke...U r not handsome or generous or kind lor..so dont always praise urself...cause u r lieing...So better to let all the ppl see ur truth colour..haha...

But if u promise tat my birthday day..i will see a present tat i always yearn for one...- music box..then i still will consider for it...change ur name...Dont care..tat is wat u promise me...Even if is not the one i want.., i still want something from u!..heard me...to me..dont stand ceremony..always bully me..so i must take revenge by asking u a present..I not so bad right.. Who ask u..always scodl me fat po, ben dan....etc.....serve u right...I WIll be waiting for u music box...

Because u r happpy..tats y i am happy now

Because have u by my side, tats y i am happy now

Because have u share my happiness, tats y i am happy now.

Do u want to know how happy i am, then ask my angel...she...might ...

2006-06-28T22:16:00.000+08:00

Treasure her ...

Work Hard....

I have nothing to write about...

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2006-06-27T22:27:00.000+08:00

NOw then got a time to update my blog, School just reopen, so got alot of thing to do. Miss mOk has told us all the impt dats for us. this term is very impt to us..got test, prelim, oral...

I just heard tat cindy wwant to break up with wei pu. No wonder when i came to school early in the morning, saw him abit weird..but i didnt ask him .i thought he just sort of tired up.. Then when during the PE. He told me this news, actaully i also dont know how to consore him , as it is very normal tat everyone will face this problem n have to go through this period..Though he is sitting in the class, his mind is somewhere else. wat i can say..everyones have theird own way of thinking, since this is happened, i guess just tell her watever ...n let her know...perhaps she felt the stress tat wei pu give her make her cant breathe, but lets think other way, if wei pu dont care about her, will she suspect he is not concern about him?...Gals r complicated, hard to understand.

Today went to serangoon garden to pluck the flower again. while i were waiting friends..i fall a sleep in the canteen.. Perhaps too tired le... n got headache...have a good sleep.~

2006-06-25T11:19:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is the start of brand new term.well if u want to ask me have u fully prepared for it, i can just tell u ..no.. Dont know...suddenly nothing is inside my mind at all..Face teachers, face exam ...then we have to face the exam results as well.

The tution is pretty good, the teacher taught us the tenses n went through the compre answer with us. We always doing our hw in last minutes then in the end we end up late again.It is not a good habit..must change..

Today we plan to go library chiong our hw n queries. ...See how isit later...

Ben hooke...always make me want to kill him.then chop him...always anyhow say...I am not ..Ok?

2006-06-25T00:58:00.000+08:00

I dont know y..today very cold to zeff..perhaps i eat something wrong..sorry zeff..i myself also dont know wat the hell i am thinking...

But i still hope u do ur best..

2006-06-23T11:10:00.000+08:00

Confused...always in a dilemma.Failure is imminent.School is going to reopen very soon, while i seems still the same. No progress at all, perhaps i still dont know how to write de word _die~..
I was dereft of hope, though is just june.I guess i had nothing left to be sanguine about..

Y i had such nightmare...U wont do this to me. U r nothing to do..then y ...y i would dream of such thing..I was incredulous..Hope it just a nightmarre to me.Hope u r the guy tat u used know. It was really terrible ...I just hope tat nightmare wont replace the good impression tat u had for me.. I deeply bless u from my botto m of my heart.U r my memories..But is was over...

Kenneth, i know u r trying very hard to forget me, but i believe soon, i also will become nothing to u .Then u can continue to search for ur right One...I always believe time can help u to fade away all the things. Jia you~....

I dont know wat i want..i am just aimlessly live with it. I have no plan no skedule..nothing..just live with watever i have ...do watever i suppose to do..I am not as strong as wat u think. Sometime i also really need someone besdie me. listen to me.... I dont think i still tell elaine everything n anything though she is my closest gal.....dont kno.w...dont know....

2006-06-22T23:50:00.000+08:00

Today went to tp find u lei~>~.hahaa...Luckily u still the same...then i happy le..i thought u maight be quite sad wor..but after saw u...i relief le wor
kekeke..

2006-06-22T10:15:00.000+08:00

21/June/2006

Woke up by my sms ring...after tat i realized is elaine..ask me to go out.then i quickly wakeup n washed.then went to eat my lunch then dressed up...but in the end i still the one waitig for her.
we went to plaze singapura meet her sis ( elieen)n her freinds..then just walked around..cause they already booked the ticket for the movie - The Omen ..but i dont really want to watch tat cause tat is the scary movie..but i more intended to watch carfield.but afriad being chilidish..so still nv watch in the end..then i went tat S&K shop..there is a shirt very speical, from the surface, it just a normal t shirt, however when u took it up n look at a closer look, u will realized tat the both sides of the shirt actually is opened... n in the end can tie a knot over there.Then inside must have to wear something.I cant believe..one normal shirt can have so many creativity of there..quite impressed..However, i stil dont really intend to buy it...thought is it quite cheap ..i felt tat is not really necessary to buy any more shirt..but elaine felt tat perhaps next time it will probably been out of stock...then keep conviced me to buy with her..cause if buy two r much more expensive..so...after one another round..she still talked about tat shirt, she still convinced me eventually.I like the shop..whenever go somewhere if saw taht shop , i would definiftely walk in n tallk a look see is there any new design n more style, but the saddness things is tat i could only buy the shirt. but not the bottom like pants or skirt.cause the s size is still very big for me, so cant help it..i also lazy to buy it home then go n remake of it.

While we walking, we saw One of the lucify member..the leader, coincidently saw him whenever we went to.The way he looked at me abit weird, i dont really like..so i nv look at him anymore. We also saw one of the sec 2 gal who joined the campus superstar last year. she has an unique voice..

After tat we went to causeway point. Inside the mrt, my mind keep thinking of u..cause u living there..we once argued about the places tat we lived. quite funny, i haven't been gone there for 4 years i supposed. we just walked around and ate somthing from there. i still rmr clearly of the foodcourt. It is quite big,and we walked until pain, but still nv give up. After tat we went to orchard road, cause elaine said she decided to buy the CHECK bag from there, so after tat..we just walked, n finally,the shop was just infront of us, n i kept reminder her to be careully be4 buy it.cause i afriad she later regret or maybe after used 3 months, then wanted to buy another one..
But she said she very confirm, then i havenot no problem with it. Then after tat we went to HMV, n went inside the Wallet shop, she saw one black pencilbox, by tat time i already worn out, then i speaked without thinking, so just said watever u want, but the pencilbox that she said..also wrote wadever on it..so then i said choose the black one instead of the white..since is more noticeable.Finally,She made up her mind buy tat. It was already 30 mins past 9 pm.but we still went to Bugis.but it was already close when we went there..then we had our dinner over there..

Dont understand,wats wrong by wearing a ku qun, those ah pei dont know kept starre at where...n the way they looked so disgusting. Y whenver i am tired of take my intiacitive msging u, u will start to chat with me. THen whenever i want to chat with u, u always pretend nothing..
U would concern who i go out with, will concern whether i got ate my dinner. But i was too tired to think...JUst left it be..perhaps will like elaine said is true....

2006-06-20T13:35:00.000+08:00

I know i upsad u...but i not purposely did it...

BUt i really am purposely dont reply ur msg..cause u make me feel wordless, so just kept quiet..but u thought i already fall a sleep le ..U thought me u wont be on9

2006-06-19T23:21:00.000+08:00

Nervous nervous..but i still nv make it...
i know i should just calm my self down..nothing big deal , it just an oral , talked watever in ur think..but i just cant do it..hopeless..talked about i also dont know wat the hell i am talking about..even myself dont get it..then dont expected Mr paul to understand it..

Actually today nothing to write about, just my feeling...darling not on9..so can share with u wor... but thanks for ur msging lastnight...i believe tat u r always r there for me..always encourage me..but i still cant make it in the end..about disappointed..

Sorry...but i always will rmb u...

Feel like going to watch carfield movie...though abit childish..but u brought me one big big carfield lei..so i also start to like my carfield.....but..both of us all too busy le...
also ask u to pei me go..but...abit peisseh..:p

But I liKE...who can pei me go watch ? sob sob

2006-06-18T23:53:00.000+08:00

Today is fathers' day..but nv go out celebrate...
Abit bored..but at least got alot of ppl accompany me..tmr is coming closer n close..i really scare lei...to talk infront of Mr paul..i know i know..i already trying to convince myself to calm down...be cool...

OoO ya....i remember today is chia you hwee's birthday...i remember last year, i went to the shop n gave him my present to him...abit miss him...but he still the same. ah beng likes to smoke...but i still believe he is a good guy..thought he always tallk nonsense, i still beleive he is a good guy...Heard from uncle taht u already changed job le...No matter wat i still want to give u my zhu fu wor..wish u can be a better person..treat ur gf better, study hard, get a cert , dont always pplay too much le...i rmb u also can be a serious guy...teach me something also...i will rmb... so must go for ur dream...and most impt quit smoke...really...I believe if u put in more effort...definitely can
U r 21 this year. going to enter poly le...U also waste 2 years of time..hope u can just be jia you...n New year, new hope...all the best..~~

really nothing to talk about le...
end here ba.~>~><

2006-06-18T12:26:00.000+08:00

Ysterday i have no time to wrtie my blog..so today write together ba...
perhaps i already knew wat is it impt in ur heart...U r willing to give others a chance..but i cant accept it when u dont even like her..so i still nv ask you for giving me a chancce..cause i still not sure r u the really one that i like..or just really a crush...I will get the answer in another day ...

YEsterday got english rem in school..so went back to school...itnitally thought there was no reminidal..but after reached the class room..i already saw Mr paul le..Wat should i say about the lesson? basically all right...i guess my oral also like one of the recorded students...Monday is my oral pre test...i am nervous..i know it cant help ot rather make it worst...Wait n see for my tmrs performance...just wish i can speak infront of teacher...after tat, Evening..i went to tution again..the teacher is not bad , actually only have 4 of us...three gals n one guy... the teahcer is quite funny..she always joke around ..help us to relax n dont feel so stress about the subject...she emphraized that language is just like a game..if u know how to play around with the words..then it is no problem...She taught us the compre skill....not bad la...at least i understand it...then she also prepared a few hw for us...it all about vocab exercise..she thinks tat our vacab are only minimal..hope we can grow in vocab by doing those exercise...

After tution, it already 10plus..then after revise awhile..then i already went to sleep ...another day is over...uncle now everynight will call me say goodngiht to me..hahaha..perhaps his wife n childens went to malaysia .so abit lonely..uncle always treat me as his daughters..care of me alot... After tat, i took an initiative msging u said good ngiht to u..from the msg i can see tat...yeah...indeed..wat i did is correct...so nvm.. it same goes to zeff...u r really caring about me..
sometime happiness is something tat everyone must seize of....John korkor also everynight will msg me n ask me how is it going..but kor...i am quite fine...but i guess kor u knew how i really feel something right...^^..but mei is no longer always find korkor le.i know how to think le wor...
^^...

2006-06-16T11:58:00.000+08:00

Argh~it killing me. from last night until now the headache still havenot gone..giddy now.but i cant sleep amnymore..so wake up....really got a bad dream i guess...

Haiz..i guess going to have to fall sick soon le...sianz.....cant do anything now...no energy le...
die better la..hahahaha....wat should i do....
...Being alone is better i guess...dont neeed to worry about.....yeah~...I already wake up from my dream....is time to face relity..
I had lost all the things tat once belong to me...i felt relief..Now then i know actually i also belong to the darkness.......

"Listen to your heart when he's calling for you.Listen to your heart there's nothing else you can do.I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,but listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye. " from Nobody...

To Nobody
hmhm...wat can i say....Sometime when i listen to my heart...but i dont dare to do anything...cause i just simply like someone..but dont want to go beyond that stage...I know i am quite selfish...but tat is me...hahah..u also know i very confused...indeed, i am...but i guess i still will remind like this....I guess friends r better ba...haha...so same to u also..stop wasting ur time on me...ii am hopeless....But i like the way u write lei...sound very poem lei....U so consider to write poem..:P...haha...Thanks alot for ur comment...

Time will prove to me...

I puposely nv msg u ..when see u...i dont know how should face u..thought only one msg..but i still dont dare to make the 1st move... Weird..then when u off9..i will wonder when u will on9 again...Dilemma...

Tmr got two tution n both are english....Lets see how isit...

I once again..rejected u..:P...sorry...but today really cause not feeling well...so i nv go n meet u...hope u can understand..i not purposely avoid u...
I guess u already know it...u hate me lieing...but..sometime...is not wat u think de....sorry...

2006-06-15T21:52:00.000+08:00

>Wake up 6 am ..went to market..with mum help her to carry...after tat went to sleep ..i dreamt of u.....really a nice sleep i had..

Whole day lying on the bed...really painful to have tat lor...sianz....but no choice....i cant change the fact..

2006-06-14T13:05:00.000+08:00

no mood....though u on9..but dont know y...i dont want u become the only person taht can make me happy.....I need to depend on myself...Today went to school for ss...abit restless..
i slowly wont so rely on u le....slowly know u not belong to me....slowly loose my hands....gradually....let u go........IF ask me who i hate the most..i guess is myself.....
I think i need time ...time....nothing else....so can wash all those undoubts n hurts....

Tonight pei pamela eat dinner wor..kekeke....we chated alot..pei her got puggol park there eat wor..1st tiem go there...quite ok ..domnt have many ppl there lei...

NOw really badly sad...i hurt u....just now...u so seriously ask me to be ur gf...but...i...cant give u the answer tat u want...cause....i scare to hurt u....u r my dearest friend...recently...u always pei me...i know we cant be the same like be4 le....hoke hai hao reminded me......wat ii can say is...u really are bad luck...like me this ben gal...
NO...ur happiness also very impt to me.....really...all is my fault....blame me...for u to know me ba....how should i do....to share the pain...my heart hurts too when see u sad...
sob sob...i know, can understand...u can no longer pei me as used to.... wat's wrong with me...tears rolling down again...i too selfish le....dislike myself....perhaps..i know its really hurts when someone reject u ba....

...sad...
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...sad.......for nothing....
lame~~....

2006-06-13T22:59:00.000+08:00

Ring ring ring..~>~>my alarm already rang..but i cant wake up at time...but no choice today have ss remindial wor...Good weather...hope i got a good mood as well...yeah...today after remindial..then guo pi said about the broadband de..then pei him go j8 see see..how the laptop is tat..after went there..he realized tat the software isn't that good..so give up on that ...then i went back....on the bus, i saw one guy .i kept looking at him...but is not cause his look..he dot really look handsome..but ..the feeling taht he gave me...make me think of U...really..i dont know..then on the way .my mind is full of u....

After came back...suprisingly , i saw u on9...indeed...i really have a good afternoon..cause got u accompany me ....I know u still dont believe me..but i guess tat is my zhen xin hua....i know u r in doubt...is impossible..but i also dont know y....IS u...really is u.....i will give myself sometime ....I dont know how u think....like wwat nini say...must jia you wor..i am glad to be with u...End of the year..i will automatically give up.....but really happy...got u pei me whole afternoon...thought u dont talk so much..but i happy wor...really...i know i am crazy..but i think i crazy in u.....

actually wat i really want from u....i myself also cant figure up...i suppose is the feeling tat i want...even ur answer is negative..i also dont mind...

Just now went to heartland mall having my dinner..i really full to eat but still manage to eat finished..dont want to upsad mum..after tat i recieve the call from pamela...ask me to pei her go hougangmall..then i just walked around..n chat chat...she really a cute gal....

after tat...on the way home...i saw ah ma feed those wild cats...they r really so innocent n cute...whenever look at ah ma..i will think of my nai nai..i miss her badly....sob sob...

2006-06-12T12:58:00.000+08:00

Cant sleep..so wake up pei mum chit chat abit..then went to have my lunch ...aiyo...she asked me today mop the floor...then ...clean the house..>.<..no choice..have to say yes~...but i nv told her today i will be going out with elaine lei..so must be guai...clean the house n mop the floor 1st.so she wont scold me le wor..hahaha.... . last night andy uncle called me..I thought is someone else..cause is private no...then when i said hi..then uncle replied...xin ai de..OoOo..then i think must be uncle..cause only him will call me tat...quite suprised to recieve uncle's call..long time nv see him..heard him said taht wan ting is back to work le wor...

She is someone i awlays will think of, she very wen rou, dont like me..so rusty. then always do her part...i guess if i were guy, i definitely chase her...hmhmh...but ...dont know y...uncle said...he dont really like wan ting..the way she worked..but i thought uncle just an wei me la...cause i also very slack de wor..but uncle said...at least i got helped out other areas which i dont need..but i said...i am kind of busybody la..keke..n.<>.<

P...U have two weeks of holiday right..guess u r enjoying urself...then nvm..actually i always want to tell u is..i nv angry with u..i just joking with u..I know u r busy with ur projects..just hope u are doing well..n enjoy ur holiday...I still waiting for u wor...
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I think i have the no right to wait anymore...tonight i finally get the answer i want le...
It really hurts my heart...Is time for me to give up le...tears rolling down from my cheek...i wont wait for u anymore.......is not i dont want u....is u give me up le....So i think is right time to let u go also...i played too much le....now is time to heal my wounds....
really indeed...it is very painful....but serve me right la....played too much...I lose to myself...
ask u is it anygal taht ever walk inside ur heart....U said u very comfused...tat moment...i know i have to give up le...no point le....so i decide to let u go...find ur happiness wor...PAul....U must...

2006-06-11T15:59:00.000+08:00

Aiyo..This wei pu ar..dont know wat had he done make her angry..now ask me to call her ...:P
I also dont know wat...just told anything tat i known lor..hope she wont angry of him anymore..
Wei pu asked me to buy bear for her wor..>.< ...hahhaa.
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but no choice...
cause of her....
hahaha.
.tmr think go n see see lor...

Now really want to see u...!!..can u just appear in my life? I want u now!!!....how long do i have to wait.>!>.Today pei zeff watch soccer again wor..this time i nv fall a sleep or feel sianz...maybe cause i watched from the beginning wor..then understand must better than yesterday wor..kekeke..not bad la..kekek..n.<..

Miss you~~..

2006-06-10T12:13:00.000+08:00
The feeling is very weird....i also cant explain wat kind of feeling is that..
Whole day...u pei me...thanks wor.>~>~><

Just now went out with elaine...she went to cut her hair..then i go there just to pei her.....it quite bored..then just walked around the heartlandmall...aiyo..this silly gal hor...still want to change hp lor...she just changed not long ago lor..then still want to change again...cant tahan her lei....

tonight, i pei zeff watch soccer wor...dont really understand...my connection aso got problem wor...always buffering ...so not really watch the whole match...hmhm....can only say okok wor..keke..at least got something to do...my 1stt ime watching that lor..:P...hmhm....anyway.in the end england win it...hahaha...

Today ....i waited 6 hrs for u.....i ve told u...i will be giving up waiting for nothing...now just the beginning.......i doubt i still have the energy to wait for u le....i am tired...n restless.....but i know the moment wake up..i will be still waiting...for nothing...

THanks HoOke this ben dan....always say rubblsih..then i still say funny...hahaha...but at least u make me smile lor..though it very lame!!!..hahah~>~..thanks alot...But u still cant deny that u r ben dan!!>..< ur IQ too low le....

2006-06-08T14:56:00.000+08:00
@_@....Sky is faded grey ....it gonna rain..indeed, sittiing in the bus, the rain poured down...sianz...and was very heavily...then i started to worry how to walk from bus stop to school...though it is only metres away..but i still will get wet...

haiz...when i reached the school, my uni n shoes are wet...then it was so uncomfotable to wear for the half day...I was like shivering lor...n both legs are cold n numb..bad luck...but after a while the rain stopped~~!!...Not happy with the weather lor......

I know Someone is concern about me lor, but but i still reluctant to see doctor,, cause i dont like to eat medicine..i really fine..^^..thanks..

not feeling well >><<>.< bitter... we have known each other for quite long, it has been 3 years ++...time flies, now u in poly, i also last year in sec...Maybe can meet in u in poly...who knows i may become ur xue mei... These days, i believe both of us changed alot...i also experienced alot of things, guess u too.... I still rmb last time, i always complained cant see u on9 so often...then from taht day, you will always on9 say hi to me 1st..hahaha...guai boy..~~.< u always pretend to be mysterious. dont want me to know who u....only recently,, u reveal ur identify ....U always say u very bad..so no gals want..hahaha..ya...i guess u r right..indeed, u r bad...caue always break my heart..whaha...dont believe watever i said.... If one day the earth stop rotate, but i still believe tat u still will be my friend...

Today xin zhi came to my house wor...really long time nv see her le...become more n more mature le..hahaa...>.<>.>
Today korkor go bbq..so i can use com whole night..but i let xin zhi use wor...so so..kekeke...only can use awhile....

I have been waited for u for 3 hrs...

I willing to wait ...wait for miracle to happen....happen on both of us~~...

2006-06-07T20:14:00.000+08:00
Nothing's in my mind now...

OoO..ya..yesterday kor very good to me lei...speically brought old chan for me wor..n nv knock my head....just very good lor..must eat somthing wrong...

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OoO..ya now then today i just now that actually my babu is from usa wor..kekek..n.< i love him so much...if got one day...i wish i can buy it for myself..Really..Whenever i down. look at him, i will smile...

I love BaBu... ~

2006-06-06T11:16:00.000+08:00
Happy..yst after the chem revison ..went to meet elaine.. long time nv seen her ...always rejected her to go out..:P ..so i guess this time must go n meet...keke...she asked me to go swimming with her..but i also dont like to swimming..But she all the way force me..so no choice..already rejected her once..later she fed up then die :P ..But unfortunately, after the reminidal..my stoach started to pain..dont know wats wrong...I also not lied to her..but is really pain lor...sad lei...but still promised her to go hougang mall with her..

Luckily she only let me wait 5 mins.I abit shua gu...long time nv go hougang mall..it has changed alot..new shops..new escatlors..:p She went to pay the bills then we just walked around the mall..,pass the water- rise shop, she said she wants to eat somthing...but i dont want to eat..stomach still pain lei...dont want..but...as usual...after forcing..she brought..then i only ate abit in the end..she very bad lei..said derek n jermmy her friends also dont say hi to them...instead i said hi to them..:P paiseh...cause went to charlet be4 ..so also known them ..esp derek...After tat..we went to mac n sit there...nothing to do..just chit chat...of recently.things that happened around me.. THen of course lor..see shuai ge...but dont like...got one guy...very tall n slim..then elaine said he got style...then i also turned n look..oK la...dont like..then i talked talked bad things lor..then he like heard it lor..turned me n looked at me..:P..i think i must be tired of living le..Elaine..suddenly told me she wants to have bf le..OMG..i was shocked when i heard it..cause she normally dont think of having another bf anymore..perhaps sometime she feels lonely.n wants a guuy to care for her ba...to me, i dont know ..i not dont want to give u another chance,cuase i guess the 2nd chance, would end up with the same conclusion. i dont know..i not yet prepared to face these all...

I felt delighted , cause can be the real myself infront of elaine.. talked , laugh, scold:P..n
I want someone to care for me..but donesnt want someone to control me...
I want freedoom, n i very selfish..so better be single..that is the right choice..i also dont mind how guys look at me..cause taht is the real i am..Dont want anyone to change myself

Love u always my darling...--...elaine lor..hahah

~u shine my day...i smile because of u.. ~

2006-06-04T17:15:00.000+08:00
>.< dont know y cant sleep now..wake up around 9am..look around the house, there is only kor is sleeping...inothing to do...so .wake up clean up the house...cant stand..so dirty..annd dumped all the kors clothes into the wash machine...then hung his judo jersay out...cause today got good weather..makes me want to do household..:P..Then after tat i cook the rice...and prepare my lunch..

I cant believe i still rmb how to cook..cause normally i find it so troublesome to cook ..so leave it to kor;;but he always scolded me..said..being a gal..also dont know how to cook..next time no one wants de..:P..then always joked ...got kor mah..can go to kors house..He sreamed at me said...I will chase u out!...:P...sad...so today i must prove to him that i am gal lor...i know how to cook..:P..Actually not so bad la..at least still edible lor..ekek...:P

Must be wondering y i today so guai..actually is from the scolding from mum last night..scolded me being so lazy..dont want to cook...so today..cook for father..so he dont need to cook when he came back from work..But sad lor...i cooked..but nv came back for dinner.>><<...nvm la...I still find satisify... boring,,boring...whole dat reading the guide book..>.< read until got headache...

2006-06-03T15:45:00.000+08:00
R....wake up in the morning,...then went to school for english reminidal...when i reached school..wei pu walking towards me n told me that actually english reminidal is cancelled..I was like cant believe..thought he just joking with me..But ...i also realized tat no one is in the school..then i dont know wat i should do...sitting there waiting for him to finish exam..Y no one told me about me...then i msg camilia,she said she knows that...n thought guo yi will inform me.but in the end i nv received any msg from him...Then i just sat outside the general office....So i think since wake up le..cant expect me to go home ..then carry on sleep ba..so wait for wei pu see...wwat to do next..

Aiyo ,,cause his stead got camp, so no one pei him,so ask me to pei him go walk walk\ lor..then since i thought go home so early also no use...so pei him lor...wah...i think he must be crazy lor...he wants to take 55 all the way to eunos ...then stop at intercharge n having lunch there....then on the way, we talk\ed alot of things..like his stead, his past, his future, his thoughts, i also talked about my past, my thoughts, my future...etc...We sahred alot...after tat , as the bus only u turn back to hougang lor..so we thought just stop at kovan ...go there walk\ walk\ lor.. He has grown up le...no longer the little boy le wor..after got a stead, he knows wat he wants le, care for his stead, more impt, he really understand his stead wor...where ever we go, he will think of his stead knows wat she likes to eat, wat she wants...This time, i think he is serious with her, she changed wei pu into a brand new person wor... maybe her innocent, naive ...make him happy...Look at their photos, i feel that they are very xing fu...I wish it will carry on ...... A person will change to be better when another pp influenced him..He knows wat is impt to him now... He also learnt to appreciate other ppls...haha~~>..<

wah... cant believe taht raymond grow so tall ...182 le...i have been long tiem nv seen him i believe...since pri 6..everyone has grow up ...but friendships are still remain ....

actually i dont blame u at all..i just dont want to see u like tat ba...cause u always r willing to lend me ur shoulder for me to cry on...really...whenever i sad, i will always turn to u...i scare lost u this friend...i really dont want to....

Back to home, then went to buy lunch for kor, after buying the i realized i short of money, but that uncle very good wor...he allows me to go n return later on..abit paiseh...but hai hao he dont mind it at all...Kor is going to work .. only left me alone at home....

perhaps i know how uglier the guys can be...i not refering to their looks, but their hearts...they just simply looking for something fun...not a person ba...

P on9 le...but i angry with him...or rather said i angry with myself...I dont think i like him ba...though i always joke with him that maybe one day i might fall in love with him wor..but i dont think i really will ba....cause there is no one will ever touch my heart anymore...I just want to have alot of friends.. like nini....we found tat we are very similiar...cause those thigns taht i encounter, she also did..so she understands how i feel...n the way we thought also the same....glad to have such great friends...Though last night i felt very lonely...felt my world only have myself...but after a while jia fond, angel n nini are chatting with me wor....make me feel i am not alone....Nini once told me...be4 win others, i must win myself...ya~~...

2006-06-02T12:21:00.000+08:00
The moment open my eyes, i just hope tat is just a dream.. >.<>~>~..

Recently, i realized whenever i on9 , the 1st thing that i do ..is to check whether P on9 or not, it is become part of my life, waited for him to on9..Maybe he is the only one taht i can complain wat i want, , talking watever i wish.. scold him for no reason.:P...hahaha...But he always busy with his work, so not always can on9 ...however, i still waiting for him.....
11 30 le...i give up waiting for u le........

Hooke always scold me as usual, the 1st time on9 is to scold me siao po..But i believe that is the way we communicate n become good friends now..sometime we always joke around, but i also see his serious side.. always give me some advices, n encouragement..hey, though i didnt do well for my exam.. i still dont want u to pei me fail la!!..U this ben dan where got ppl wants to fail de...Study hard, This year also impt to u, whther u can go uni or not, depend on this end exam right.. If cant.. u still can come to singapore wor,, i will be waiting for u.. so can bully u~~..whahaha..:P....

Waiting now wor...>...<...

I was down,,cause see u hurting urslef..u know i dont like to see u smoke...but u purposely want to do so..for wat? i might dont understand. but i know it is not good for health lor...I really dont want to see u like tat..really....

Suddenly i know how is it feel like.....actually after break..i thought can remain like friends..i always try to be friends again..so no matter wat, i will always promise to go with with him also...cause i feell taht friends are normal to go out de...I also happy to be with him ar....
I thought tat feeling is better than couple....maybe i too selfish le...i dont know it actually make him very sad ba....today, the way he rejected me, i suddenly understand how he actually felt ba..i know u r avoiding me, nvm..i understand le...sorry, if u think i this friends bring u sadness, the i will promise i wont go n find u anymore, perhaps this is the best way...
But no matter wat, i still treausre u this friend..really...
kenneth, if because of you make u so sad, then i am sorry, but i really precious have such friend like u, concern me alot alot...always ren wo de bad temper..i really appreciate alot..but u still promise u will bring me to see the shooting star, aren't you? u cant break the promise right?...
...remind happy hao ma....??

2006-05-31T19:42:00.000+08:00
Today wake up early in the morning went to school for chemistry remindial, after tat havve to rush to singapore poly..

I had mixed feeling, looking forwards to how those ppl are doing in poly, but i also quite scare of how to mix friends together... It actually going pretty wellin the end ,just abit alonely..
I chose the optometry. After explanation. i know much more things about it. TThe critia is quite high, 9 points. OMg..how am i going to get tat~~>.<.. but i still will try it.. U only lose somthing, then realize that is impt to u...Too late...nvm~~>.just wish everyoone happy..Today is jingyun's birthday..this siao po still wants me to give her present lei...i suppose today she is very happy..caus\e got alot of shuai ge there...hahah~~...that should be her most day i suppose..keke...

wei~~...today i waited for u an hour ++.....are u really angry with me..i just...joking with u de..U know i just kidding with u de right.~>..<~.. I suppose the Nicky's songs suit my mood totally.....<..Wo hui hao hao guo~>~.>>

2006-05-29T15:37:00.000+08:00
Argh, i cant wake up in the morning, l\\uckily there is an msg from Raymond. He always picked the right time to msg me - when i was sleeping. But this time he really helped me, if not i think dont know wat will happen. :P

But but, i actually forgot to bring my pencil box when i going to the exam hall..cant believe it haiz...ya.. hopless. indeed. hmhmh...i have no comment on the exam paper .Difficult or easy? dont know...i just trying my best to do Finally exam is over...phew~~now waiting for the results~~....dot dot dot...

argh~~..nnono..bird flew into my house..n it cant fly out.....when i knew it..i almost gone crazy..caus\e i scare of birds.~..then i open the windows..but it still cant able to fly out. all my goosepimples appeared. i was so scare...shouting all the way..But no matter how, there is no one at home, i suddenly feel lost...i need to be independence.....i dont know i just scare of it..I dont scare of it when i was young.. i used to play with chicken..but now ..ii had such fear.. it really scaring me...Kor not at home, i dont know wat to do also...then wat i did just open door n winodw widly n use the bloom to chase it out.>~< finally...~~

2006-05-28T20:31:00.000+08:00
Rainy day, i have a bad day..indeed, Dont know y i cant concentrate properly...I lost my ezlink card...i cant rmb where i put..i might lost it when i camt back from the kovan..or lost in at home..but i cant find it...searching all over the places, but still cant..
Today also went to watch the divince code with kenneth.. hhmhm..frankly speaking, i dont really get the story at all.. i almost fallen a sleep...waste money right..kekeke..but luckily..i didn't..keke..

Tmr is the mT o level..i dont know, no feeling at all...wish me good luck stilL~~

2006-05-26T15:23:00.000+08:00

Argh wake up early in morning, cause today is friday, parents meeting.So have to go school with my mum mum.Honestly speaking, i was quite nervous, cause i wasn't sure wat could miss mok told mum about my results.
Finally reached the school gate,then lead to the staff room find miss mok, she is smiling to me. after a long time, she gave me some advices n also encourages me alot...it same goes to Miss tan.
sigh,, finally it is over, then after tat reached home , i went to sleep.. then after a while dont know who is the one so early msg me. when i read the msg, that ppl annoy me..cause asked me to guess who is it. I feel very irritated cause it woke me up n also asked diao me..all the time..dont want to reveal the identity.
After tat all the nonsense, then that ppl told me is an old pri friend, i was really quite suprised is Raymond. cant believe is him..really..it really has been a long time nv heard any news from him. But quite happy also..luckily he is someone i know, if not i dont think tat pp will get over so easily from me.. IN pri school m he sat infront of me, n very pro in english. so he always tried to talk to me in chinese. He really is very good guy, always had a storybook with him. Indeed , like wat he says, he is very shy, even dont dare to talk to me though just behind him. last time there was some rumour going along that he likes me, but tat time there is anoter guy chased me. so he is scared..reflect on all these, i found it very funny.time flies, it had been 3 years ++ ..soon we are all will leaving secondary life. But those times we spent together was always in my mind. cause tehre is the only time i am happy wiht.. cause got all of u..with me~..
I missed those pri life, is more freedom dont have so much stress, go out togther. laugh n cry together.
.how i wish~~...

I suppose wat i did to u is the best way....i rather to see u hurt now then later..there is no other reason, i just simply think through everything..If can, i really wish i am the one getting hurt..

My heart breaks when i am hurting u...JIa you n carry on with ur life...go for ur aim, dream..~~

2006-05-25T20:23:00.000+08:00

Right now, i getting very irriated n annoy for nothing..Cant stand myself

Today got sports day, abit regretted for not participate in any events.. so bored sitting there for a fews hours watching Them running...It so dumb, dont know tat feeling at all..Nvm forget it..over is over..nothing to say anymore..

I finally brought one high heel shoe.>~<.Mum chose the shoe for me, even though i dont really like it so much, but i still trust mum's taste. Until now then brought, was all because whenever go to the shoes shop, i always cant find nice one. Since today mum chose..so i dont need to think much about it.>~<...

2006-05-24T18:08:00.000+08:00

I like the sunset when i look out from my house ,like the air that i inhale into my lung..i like the blue sky...that can be seen from my house..

How i wish time could just stop in that perfect moment so tat i would have time to install into my mind!

2006-05-21T00:14:00.000+08:00
Today went to watch poseidon with Eunice..it was quite awesome...Must go n experience it.I ve leant something is that must always believe we can..always be positive....there were 10 people initally think that they can suvive ..so they tried to find way...along the way..there are ppl gave up, there are ppl sacriface their lives to save the rest..IT was quite touched...they are cooperactive and helped each other . there were 7 ppl suvive eventually..

At the end of the movie..i cried, i was not sad of the movie..but is upsad of the memories..I had thought of that time when u brought me to watch the king kong..where hugged me tight when i got scarred by some scenes..I am so useless..cause it would not able to get over u...I still thought of the 1st time we went to watch the movie..where u promised me u would be there always for me....The movie made me thought of all the memories we had...sorry...

2006-05-19T21:48:00.000+08:00
wat can i say...today sitting in the hall for 2 hours for sexual programme, as usual...talking about how to handle relationship, nothing's gonna to do with me..cause i am hopless..it won't be anything to do with me anymore..My heart wont move by anything or anyone...

Then went to serangoon stadium with wei pu..It was quite suprised tat there was a weird uncle treat meal..the most ridulous thing is that he doen't know him at all..then we asked the store aunt she said he saw wei pu sitting there without food..so treat him.....waH>>.i can say that it was quite amazing..how come there is such generous ppl around..After lunch., then we went to stadium...sitting there for dont know how long..then in the end i realized tat the event has been postponed to next week..I was very agitated..as i came from 2 somthing..then i waited for 5 somthing..then they suddenly told me postponed to next week...

I was really down to dont know where...i failed three subs in total...how am i supposed to do..I know teachers encouraged me to try hard more..but it still an impt exam for me...it shows taht my standard is not there yet...Wat i most worried is wat should i do...I have think of get a tuitor..but i afriad it will add on parents stress..how....

Lastly i would like to see u happy..really...i leg u go..doesn't means tat i dont like u anymore..i just dont want u to carry on like tat anymore...it have been one week..i just hope u r getting well....

2006-05-18T20:20:00.000+08:00
Forget it...Today i finally got back all the subs..those subs tat expected, failed...

2006-05-15T16:05:00.000+08:00
Stopping doting me ..cause i really dont worth ur care, love, and concern at all..Really..sorry..to all the people..

I hate myself...and dont want to make the mistaken over n over again..so i decided to make all things clear ...dont really want to waste thir times anymore on me..I useless, helpless...i know wat i did...is hurt u alot...sorry...I really dont wish to hurt u..really..cause i know the pain...Kor told me think be4 i do..cause once u say, it will be game over..Aftter days consideration, i still nv change the decision..though my heart is pain, cause u once light up my life.U love me ..I was in dilemma,asked myself..isnt good to find someone that love me..then y i still not satisfy..where is the problem..

I dont know..until now i only know tat maybe let u go is better...cause maybe there is someone out there will more appreciate it ba..sorry...i know i very cruel...hurt u alot alot...sorry...but i cant carry on continue like nothing happened..cause i no feeling towards everything including u..so tats is not fair for u ...sorry...i suppose u will hate me..i dont mind if u r..cause i indeed very cruel..

I dont understand ask kor, if i dont like u...then y i still need to hestiate to tell u..Kor told me taht is not i dont like u..is tat it is too fast for u to own that thing..so i might just take it granted so now when i let go, i still dont bear to let go..But i know i need to do somthing...if it continues i think will be too late...

I was shivering when i told him wat i want to say...If can i really want to handle all those pain

Wat i did to u, isn't the same as wat Bs did to me...I hate him once, but now i hate myself more ..

2006-05-12T19:39:00.000+08:00
sorry..... u might be angry when saw it..i really dont know wat to do..Kor once said..think twice be4 i do anything, cause once it lost, it wont come back..thats y i feel fan..Sorry..just forget me please, i dont worth ur caring... last two weeks ago, i think u just leave without a word. i was quite sad..and think it over and over again.. i lose u, isit really get used to have u. or like u...i also once asked u this qns....I really get the answer.
I hate myself, sorry, right from the start, i know i should not nod my head..cause i know i dont like u,but i was very down, wants to have someone to share..so..i tink i was mad..when we went out, i also feel tat i actually dont suit u at all.I very selfish..have u..i felt guilty..now then i just realized tat i was too much, hurt someone who care for me. i thought just let it carry on..but i think i shouldnot carry on to make the mistake again. Someone hurts me, doesnot mean tat i also shuld hurt u anymore.cause if i did so. it is same as wat he did to me..i dont want..
Sorry..i hate myself ..hate ... so dont ever like me anymore...i would prefer u to hate me..maybe it is better for u.. u might dont wantt o be friends anymore ba...it's okie..from the day tat u angry thought i hiddedn something from u. i know u like me alot alot....but now the more u like.more guilty i had..
Sorry...After a twice thought.i think is better for me to be alone.....alone in the darkness...sorry..vic..

2006-05-11T18:24:00.000+08:00
I am happy i finally can do something for grandpa......
I know i still could not do anything for grandpa..but i think i still can do within my limit.
so i decided to give some money to him,, just hope he can use tat to buy things that he likes to eat and happy everyday...

I supposely have a bad mood...cause from wat i can see, i know i failed alot of subs..really dont know how to do, dare not to face teachers. down~...

Sorry elaine.. i know today u are kindly ask me out ..u know i very stress so purposely ask me out for some relaxation..But i rejected..sorry...today my mum at home,so need to pei her for aday..

Thanks Paul for pei me whole night.. keep me accompany.. so that i wont feel so alone..thanks.

2006-05-09T14:53:00.000+08:00
Love is

being happy for the other person when they are happy
being sad for the person when they r sad
being together in good times n being together in bad times

Love is the source of strength

Love is

being honest with yourself at all times
being honest with the other person at all times
telling, listening, respecting the trust n nv pretending

Love is the source of reality

Love is

the furt of the storm
the calm in the rainbow

Love is souce of passion

Love is

knowing that the ohter person
will always be with you regardless of wat happens
missing the other person when they are away
but remaining near in heart at all times

Love is the source of security
Love is the source of life

2006-05-08T12:44:00.000+08:00
I really down to the abyss Gos..
Really sad ,Both paper i could not do, feel like handing up all the blank paper..
I am serious ,but i hesitate awhile.got a word flashed through my mind is " Try"
Then i just tried the paper, I disappinted to myself..

Zeff, thanks.. u r there consoling me, i will try to buck up~~

2006-05-07T20:32:00.000+08:00
Wah...THe 1st thing when i opend my eye is to see a msg from John KorkoR..So happy he finally back..Kor finally back to myside.. Kor mei miss u alot alot wor...Mei always waiting for kor to come back.. U shine mei's day up..really~~... U always sayang sayang me,mei always like to sa jiao with kor de..^_-..

Thanks for encouraging me.. I know whenever i need u, u will always be there for u... But.. i dont know it is fair to u...

Next week is exam week....Wish me good luck~

2006-05-07T00:39:00.000+08:00
U r cruel.....
That day u went away. i always know it is over...

i think u know i am just joking around with u..then y u still dare to ssay those things taht wont happen..it might hurt ppls..u said maybe a day that u will fall in love with me.. but i got a Qns.. y u think so...to me is impossible..dont u think so..

Y must i know the fact that u alread broken...I thought..ur will be very happy ...then y...
it is\ better for me not to know it..but i\ still found out...do u know how mu\ch pain i had..i dont want to see u down, sad.. wat am i suppose to do for u...

Thanks NObody. although i dont know who r u..i still wants to tahnk u for leaving me some msg taht makd me feel i am not alone....

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